Happiness Vs Closure (a Sad ending)

My heart is very heavy,with so many thoughts going through my head. I want things to change, if only speak I upon the feelings that could bring me healing. I don't know why I say things that makes me happy for only a moment. One of my feelings right now has to be spoken before its too late to reciprocate. I gave a lot of directions as I thought were right. Thinking that maybe since I had time to myself I could give you a different route to follow your way back to me. Yet, I was wrong again. I am sorry I have lead you into the wrong direction, thinking that it was the right path I wanted you to go. Maybe I need to find my way my out on my own. Maybe this is the end, maybe what I needed all along was closure because you are just bringing me back to where I don't need to be. Trying to piece something back together didn't work out, well at least for me. There's no trying to help me find my way back to you because right now, I need to get my map, turn it the right way, and follow my own path by myself. Yes, it will get hard and lonely but, I will be where I want and got to be someday. I will always think of you when I see the smiley face you placed on the map when we first met. Maybe we will cross paths again and you will find the special someone for you. Until then wipe away your tears, grab your gear, put away your fears, and follow your dreams back to where it was once gleamed.