Wednesday, July 29, 2009

a journal entry that i wrote conerning my first boyfriend back in 05



Category: Life
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Hey
baby I just want to say I Love You. I miss you all the time. I know I act like
a little bitch all the time. I need to stop being that and start being more
mature. Step up more in my schoolwork, watching my surroundings, watching whom
I talk too. Making smart choice sand use my mind. I don’t mind doing anything
for you or your family. I love you with all my heart; you have that special
room with that pair of keys. You don’t have that room where everybody else has.
I tore that room down, getting it ready for you. From the day we started
hanging out together, after a few weeks it was ready for you to move in. all
you had to do was show me that you wanted the place and that you can keep up
with the rent every month. You don’t have to pay me money; I just want your
love and care for me. I always wonder if I don’t call you for a few day, were
you going to ask me “ Were are you?” or “Are you okay?”

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I am
not saying you are suppose to do that, but I just want to see if you do care
enough about me like you say you do. You can even Meka if I am okay. That would
really show me that you do really love me. I always stop on top calling you
every chance I get. I am not like the others. Lets get something straight. Just
because you say you are boyfriend or girlfriend and love each other. Make sure
you both are okay by calling or do what you got to do to make sure you get in
contact. You don’t claim that you are with each other and don’t speak or see
each other after a few weeks. I don’t
see it like that. I see it as if, if you got free time you should spend it with
you with your love one. Let him or she knows that you are thinking or they and
let them love’em. I can’t do the whole separating thing, but for so long. If I
had to a choice whether to be with you, I would be with you all day and night.
Just lying on your bed holding you or vice versa. I stop what I am doing every
time & think about you.

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No
one could ever replace you, no man could come up to me and try to get with me
because I have you. Let’s get this straight no one could love me like you do. I
don’t ever want to dream the day you break with me. That’s how much faith and
patient I am putting in this relationship. I know I may get on your nerves when
I am calling you every 15 minutes. The reason I do it is because I love you,
care and want to know how you are doing. If we are going to be together we have
to have some understanding with each other. I don’t want you to think I am
checking your every move, thinking you doing things or just being noisy. If you
are not with me I get lonely at times, cause you are the one I spend most of my
time with you. I know we can’t be with each other every minute, but this is how
I am. I love it when you say I love you like I said I don’t want to make you
say something that you don’t feel comfortable saying yet.

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I
have a lot of care for you I would do anything to be who you keep you safe and
loved. I know I wrote a whole story I am just expressing my love and trying to
get some understanding in many ways as possible. I hope you did understand a
little. I love you so much don’t break my heart (what’ left of it)

From
your Baby,

Timothy-
March 10,2005-


12:40am

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Monday, April 13, 2009

Current mood:LOST

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Hey Baby you know who this be. This be your baby M****. You
know I Love You and I will always love you. Yes there are going to be some bad
times, but we will get around it. Why? Because, we love each other.

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Baby I Love You M****

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*Baby, I Love you too. You will always be in my heart even
through bad times. I Love You!!!!!! Damn!*


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